Ternyata, serapi apapun rancangan manusia, jika Allah nggak menghendaki maka nggak akan mungkin terwujud. Seringkali aku mengetahui hal ini dari pengalaman orang lain. Aku sendiri juga sering merencanakan sesuatu namun gagal di tengah jalan. Tapi aku nggak pernah menyangka akan mengalami sendiri hal pahit ini. Namun aku percaya Allah lebih mengetahui baik-buruknya sesuatu itu, dan Allah adalah pemilik rencana terbaik untuk makhluk-Nya.
Lanjutan dari A Part of My Life Story yang aku tulis sebelumnya, tentang kisah yang tak akan pernah kulupakan selamanya.
Masih seputaran Turki sih ceritanya. With a Turkish man, maksudnya. We met, we talked, felt comfortable with each other, we dated, we planned to get married, we had many problems from outside, and then...I only can write my feeling through a song lyrics of Christian Wunderlich:
Why Goodbye
So are we over now
Do we just turn the page
Do we just turn the page
or let the story end?
Do we just walk away
Just like we never meant
I know we said some things
And now you want to leave
But maybe that's no reason to
let a good love die
Why goodbye
Why must it be this way
So many words
So many other words that we could say
Why goodbye
After all this time
Can't we try
Why goodbye
Why can't we work it out
Why can't we talk it out little more this time
Search through the rain and find
A ray of hope still shine
We can just close the door
We still are fighting for
We've come too far together to
leave it all behind
The road that I love is never easy
You'll get lost along the way
But in time
You will find your way through
We can make it through the bad times
We can make it to the good times
Through the stormy weather
'Cos we belong together
Do we just walk away
Just like we never meant
I know we said some things
And now you want to leave
But maybe that's no reason to
let a good love die
Why goodbye
Why must it be this way
So many words
So many other words that we could say
Why goodbye
After all this time
Can't we try
Why goodbye
Why can't we work it out
Why can't we talk it out little more this time
Search through the rain and find
A ray of hope still shine
We can just close the door
We still are fighting for
We've come too far together to
leave it all behind
The road that I love is never easy
You'll get lost along the way
But in time
You will find your way through
We can make it through the bad times
We can make it to the good times
Through the stormy weather
'Cos we belong together
It's not our fault. We never knew it would be like this. If only I could turn back the time -but I never could-, I would never give you a chance to love me. I never wanna hurt you..
Aku percaya, Allah nggak akan kasih cobaan diluar kemampuan hamba-Nya. Berat sih sebenernya, apalagi kami udah berencana untuk mengikat hubungan kami dengan pernikahan. Tapi keputusan yang aku ambil adalah untuk kebaikan bersama. So sad but I have to do this. Terlalu banyak perbedaan yang memang saat ini belum begitu terlihat. Belum muncul karena toleransi dan rasa cinta yang masih sangat kuat. Bukan berarti kalo udah lama nikah terus cintanya luntur dan udah nggak mau bertoleransi lagi. Sama sekali bukan itu.
Aku sayang, karena itu aku melepaskan. Semakin digenggam, semakin terlukalah kami berdua.
Aku percaya, Allah nggak akan kasih cobaan diluar kemampuan hamba-Nya. Berat sih sebenernya, apalagi kami udah berencana untuk mengikat hubungan kami dengan pernikahan. Tapi keputusan yang aku ambil adalah untuk kebaikan bersama. So sad but I have to do this. Terlalu banyak perbedaan yang memang saat ini belum begitu terlihat. Belum muncul karena toleransi dan rasa cinta yang masih sangat kuat. Bukan berarti kalo udah lama nikah terus cintanya luntur dan udah nggak mau bertoleransi lagi. Sama sekali bukan itu.
Aku sayang, karena itu aku melepaskan. Semakin digenggam, semakin terlukalah kami berdua.
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